Last week I forgot to post my little weigh-in chart! Oops! Here’s what it should’ve looked like last week:

10/5/12
Starting weight: 252.4
Last weigh-in: 252.8
Today: 254.2
Change: +1.4
Total loss/gain: +2

So, yeah, that wasn’t so good. And this week I hoped I’d be down a little and, as it turns out, I am … a very, very little.

10/12/12
Starting weight: 252.4
Last weigh-in: 254.2
Today: 254.0
Change: -0.2
Total loss/gain: +1.6

I knew it wouldn’t be pretty this week, but I’d hoped for a little more than that. Still got some work to do. Luckily the ugly carbzilla monster who reared her head two weeks ago has left the building. This week I’ve been much, much more in control.

I’m not sure everyone out there gets this food thing that some people, like myself, go through. I hate to compare it to a drug addiction because that seems to trivialize drug addiction, in some way. But that’s still the only thing I have to compare it to that seems accurate. It’s like, you know a huge burger and fries is not the healthiest meal option, but something inside you draws you to it anyway.

This struggle for me is all about learning what triggers me to want to eat more, and eat when I’m not really hungry, and trying to counterbalance that with something more healthy for myself. Next week I want to focus on eating fewer flex points on a daily basis, so that I can enjoy my birthday next Wed. without going overboard. So that means this weekend — and weekends are always the hardest — I’ll try to eat much like I do on the weekdays. No crazy binges on Halloween candy for me!

Do you think it’s possible to have a food addiction?