Every time I step on the scale and I see little to no change, this is the ugly four-letter word that flashes in my head: FAIL.
It’s not a pretty word, and it doesn’t help to have that word bouncing around in my head first thing in the morning. At this point, I know there are a few things that I’m doing wrong and I’m hoping to correct those, so I can see the number on the scale moving downward again.
But there’s also a little bit of frustration going on. A little bit of: But I’m working out! And drinking tons of water! And counting all my calories!
Still, I know there’s always room for improvement. Here’s a couple things I’m going to focus on in the next few days, and I will see how that affects my weight.
1. I admit it. I’ve been sneaking a Diet Coke now and then. It hasn’t been much — maybe once or twice a day. But even that’s too much. I’m going to cut that out & stick with water & unsweetened iced tea. (Though I do have my pouty face on about this!)
2. A while back, I stopped taking my Metformin. I’m not exactly sure why, but I did. Well, maybe I need to own up to the fact that I really do have insulin resistance, which the Metformin is supposed to help, and just take it on a daily basis as my doctor instructed. I am, however, going to make a couple doctor appointments to get my stats checked. It’s time for a checkup anyway!
3. REALLY count my calories. And you know what I mean. You know that bit of salsa or those 3 tbsp. of ketchup (I like a lot of ketchup!)? Well, I rarely count those. And that tiny Dove chocolate that’s 40 calories? Did you count that? Sometimes I do, sometimes I know I forget. I need to count each & every tiny morsel I eat, without skipping anything.
4. Stop eating back ANY calories I burn while exercising. While this is my general rule, I definitely eat back 100-200 calories sometimes, thinking, “Oh, it’s just a few and I burned a lot more than that at my workout.” Possibly. I do think the exercise calculators are often off, and we probably don’t burn quite as many calories as is estimated. So I need to make up for that by not eating back the calories I’ve burned. Period.
I’m hoping taking these steps will help with the number on the scale and that by, say, Thursday, I’ll see a difference. One of my biggest downfalls is sweets, especially anything homemade, and I know better because you can’t easily count the calories in those. I don’t know exactly how it was made or what the portion size is. All I can do is guesstimate. So I need to just cut myself off when it comes to baked goods, period.
I know a lot of this may seem like a no-brainer to people who always eat healthfully, or who’ve had weight-loss success. But as someone who wants to lead a balanced life — in other words, I refuse to cut out foods completely and go on a low-carb, kale-only, high-protein, no fat diet (not that that actually exists!), I’m searching for the “in between.” I am trying to find the balance between wanting a slice of pizza now & then, or wanting to enjoy something like the family reunion I have coming up this weekend, & going back down the path of eating totally unhealthfully and never exercising. I don’t want THAT to happen!
So there’s got to be a happy medium somewhere that doesn’t make the word FAIL flash before me in neon lights!